Depressed Mind

I feel the rush of existance
it once brought me so long ago
I long to feel alive again 
to have the fleeting moment of ecstasy

I tap into my soul
it starts to unfold 
as I let it take me there

Everything is lost 
and yet emotions are strong

As I let my sanity
wander into oblivion
I am sold

I sell myself to all that lies within me- 
emptiness, lust, desire, longings 
of needing to feel wanted and alive

I slide another blade down my skin
as red pours over me
I let myself feel soothed
and stay in the stillness I call home

I know
without a doubt 
that you'll never leave me